Los Angeles, CA. – currently enjoying 24 degrees of warm weather, paired with a nice breath of …
“Here you can be anything you choose to be.”
When people usually ask me why I love California that much, it’s pretty easy to name the obvious… 300 days of sunshine during the entire year, surrounded by palm tress, super friendly people, beautiful landscapes, picture perfect sunsets and dreamy beaches like we only see in movies. What about the not so obvious part though – what makes California and especially LA so very unique?! What exactly it is that facinates me so very much and why I chose to make this place my second home, – is something I’d love to talk about in todays post.
In my ZEN – ZONE
Like literally!!! I’ve traveled to many places on this beautiful planet and I’ve seen and experienced a lot of different cultures which I cherish a lot but, there is only one place that bursts my soul on fire — Los Angeles, California in the United States of America!!! It is true what people say – the clocks here are ticking differently! There is something very special about the flair in this city and most of all about the Americans or lets rather say Californians – which I love and appreciate so very much. Their uber friendly attitude (that often times gets confused with being fake), their way of dealing with people, handling every day situations, their undying believe that everything is possible, optimism in general is a big thing over here and most of all that people let you be whoever you want to be. There is a certain vibe that comes with this city and the people living here, – a laid back atmosphere paired with a pleasant calmness. LA to me, – means freedom! Freedom in many ways and it sure is a place where you can create & live your dreams.
But let me start from the beginning… While I’m a proud German by heart, don’t get me wrong, there are many things I LOVE about my home country, – but I do have to admit it hasn’t always been easy for me to be 100% myself – in a country where critic, devaluation, invalidation, envy and a lot of resentment is on the daily agenda!
Starting at school, I was always a bit different! With a name that no one actually could pronounce – Antic´, excuse me what?!?! Topped with a slavic face structure and full lips from my Serbien Grandma/my dads mother), paired with a vivid spirit, an undying energy, a super feisty laugh, a huge imagination and even bigger dreams. Clearly, I didn’t fit in any typical niche. Truth to be told, I had to fight my way through my early childhood and even teenage years. It always felt like I wasn’t being accepted for who I truly was. I tried to fit in but noticed pretty quickly that I wouldn’t get anywhere if I’m trying to be someone that I am not!
Little did I know about LA back then, and that it would be that one very special place – where I can be MYSELF and only myself, where I would follow my dreams without anyone laughing about it and where I would feel most alive & most of all FREE.
Years later, after 2 very intense and eye opening vacations in Los Angeles, graduating acting school in Germany and an admission exam on an acting school in Hollywood which I passed with a big YES – it was crystal clear – I’m gonna make the big move to LA. Saved all my money, and finally took a leap on choosing me and my career without the echo of the world. October, 22nd 2009, – I was 23 back then, my first day arriving in LA with a student visa, I remember it like it was yesterday. The moment I got to the airport already felt different, a huge feeling of being fulfilled flooded my body and I knew something unbelievably great is about to happen. The following years became the best years of my ENTIRE LIFE! I got to know my two best friends, my soulmates, – who I cherish and love sooooo very much – I graduated from the Stella Adler Academy of Acting, which was only possible in my wildest dreams (Marlon Brando, Mark Ruffalo and Robert De Niro were also students there btw) I picked up skating again which I stopped for years after a serve car accident, I worked hard, I cried, I lived, I laughed and I loved how I never did before, – most of all I finally became everything I truly am. Los Angeles and it’s very open spirit to basically anything and their supportive people here truly helped me to unfold me, MY TRUE ME. I found my true self here and got to know everything about me, without people trying to evaluate. Even hard times become more manageable over here – the next sunset or a walk at the beach is just a few miles away to clear your head and get new perspectives. What can I say, Los Angeles to me is the embodiment of PEACE. It is my favorite playground for expressing my talents, it’s my greatest inspiration and that one place where I can reach my ultimate potential. Amongst a side of endless activities you can go after – it is a city that is about opportunity, creativity, culture and experience. I learned to listen to my own beat, I learned how to dance to my own rhythm and how to truly nourish and listen to my soul. Simply, my love for Los Angeles is endless.
It is true what they say about California – the land of endless possibilities, & where dreams DO COME TRUE!